Walking in the dark (with my eyes covered) through the hallway to put my boots on for work was really, actually quite daunting.
I always keep my boots by the bottom of the stairs, which I knew to be at the right of me. I didn’t trust myself to be able not only to find my boots, but also the right side of the hallway!
I held on to the walls and felt my way around the light switches and across doorways until I figured I was almost opposite the stairs, and then I trekked across the two feet of floor to the otherside…
I was anxious, and scarred that I would trip or stub my toe on the skirting or my boots.
I felt the newel post at the side of the staircase, and slid down until I could feel the two bottom steps, and my boots, and managed to sit onto the stairs. Have you ever sat on a chair without looking behind you to check it was still there? There’s a moment when you’re sure you will end up on the floor, just before you reach the seat. It’s a mixture of anxiety, fear, sudden loss of confidence, then relief as you reach the seat. That’s what I felt as I sat down on the stairs.